Apparently...

I'm completely self delusional...

I would never have thot this..

Infact if asked to describe myself i would say that i'm a sweet, too-nice, wears her feelings on her jacket kinda girl...

But apparently i'm more of a stone cold dont care about anyone *insert bad word that starts with b*

I guess it shouldn't be that much of a shock

I remember one time when my friend said she didnt think i was a christian because 'you're not a nice person' *insert shocked hurt expression* Although her opinion obviously changed when she got to know me- at least i HOPE it has*

So- if i care about people truly and it just doesnt show- I don't actually know what to do

Oh please- i dont want to hear that 'then show it' because as i said before i thought i was showing the feelings a bit too much

Short of pasting a fake smile on my face and carrying cardboard signs detailing how i feel about people, i really don't know how to change this impression.

btw- on a more random note, i noticed d'banj and his using a white girl in his current video- but can't the guy like a white girl again? Have we just forgotten the millions of black girls he used in his past videos?

On another random note- i was really irritated the other day when i opened the hair section of a magazine and saw Beyonce's poker straight weave being described as 'afro-hair' then i though about it and thought- 'hmmm- these magazines aim to appeal to as wide a demographic as possible and most black people have 'white' hair in the form of weaves and expensive hair modifying products- so even if the magazines don't exressly mention 'black hair', realistically they cater to it as well!

But hey- dont make this a human rights issue- im having enough pain from my chocolate fast as it is. *day 2*

xx