Pushy. I wonder if i'm pushy. When i think of pushy...a picture of a really annoying person comes to mind..i guess in some ways im annoying..but everybody is entitled to be annoying sometimes right?? Someone called me pushy..and today i was thinking about it..i guess i am in some ways.I think i might be delusional as well. If you ask someone 'do you like me?' and they say 'i havnt thought about us in that way'..then the person has politely said..'um..no'..Why is this just realisation just coming to me today?? After days and days of making myself look more stupid than i've already done. i think theres a reason why girls pick 'bastards'..because they always know where they stand.Polite people? not so much..they answer everything so diplomatically, you dont pick up the hints until its to late and you look too stupid..*hits head*..I feel like SUCH an IDIOT!!
It seems like i'm always writing about a guy. this guy. Because he makes me feel like i can sometimes reach a level of stupidity i didnt know i had. I can deal with someone not liking me..etc..what really makes me feel stupid is all those diplomatic hints that i just DID NOT get!! I dont know what to say anymore. i guess im just going to keep on cringeing till i get over it and learn to tune my 'hint reception' to a higher frequency.
I'm really not this stupid. I would actually say i'm quite smart. I'm not this obsessive. I would even say i'm fickle. I just dont know what to say anymore. I guess i dont know myself as well as i thought i did.