18.11.08

Guys Guys Guys

i deserve better than i settle for. I just realised this. I never move on. Never ever. I always hang on and pretend that were 'friends'..but we neva really are. A friend would never have treated me like that in the first place, would they? I need to learn when to cut my losses and move on. MOVE ON. Now- i can count THREE people i havnt let go off. well one of them-its not him- its us- what we had that i cant let go off. I wake up in d middle of the nite crying bcos i want it so much! the other 2- i dont know what it is..my own weakness maybe?

Nobody believes when i say i'm never looking for someone to walk into my life. they just keep walking in. i keep on telling people im not ready..but guys- they dont listen- so how come im the one that ends up gettin hurt

Mr new guy! gee- i dont want someone else. i really dont. everytime i tell him this- he makes me out to be an ogre (in the nicest way possible)..bcos he really is a nice person..but i dont mind being friends- but thats all it is..does this mean i cant make friends anymore? is it always going to be 'us' or nothing..cos thats wat it always is!

*sigh*

Am i being ungrateful thats theres no guy shortage? Or am i allowed to pray that there might be a short break!

xx

7 comments:

~Sirius~ said...

Hmmm, you sound like you need spring cleaning, let all of them go, be your own boyfriend, love yourself, find yourself, be independent of the company of a guy in your life, after all of this you will feel much better and then you will be able to handle "them" using your heart as well as your head............
Like you said how come you're the one who ends up getting hurt? It's not that they don't listen, YOU DON'T listen to YOURSELF.......:-)
Take the break girl...

Nefertiti said...

lol... ok I really don't mean to laff, but u shouldn't feel ungrateful. Ungrateful for what? Sheybi you told them. They'll be alright abeg. Just say NO, and move on. My mom says those were my first words. Those 2 letters have saved me a lot of headache.

Put yourself first lady, the time will come when you won't have a choice but to put others first.

MissLove said...

its cool that u r not jumping into anything trust me i am feeling exactly the same way u right now!! and midnight is so evil as I begin to reminiscene on what has transpired in the past it hurts cos I loved what we had and im not so sure if its about two of us...or him... i loved it so so much..argh!I feel u its so hard to let go and just move on..God will see us through lol and we dont need another drama by letting someone walk in! and no! if he was truly ur friend he should have known better! we both deserve best :) smile boo!

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

I must have been 'you' in a previous life
oh you were 'me' in a previous life
coz I have been trying to understand what makes me not able to move on easily too.
that
or else you some alien, stealing my thoughts and turning them into posts.lol

NigerianDramaQueen said...

I feel you...its so hard to move on for me...but like you said, sometimes its necessary to count our losses and move on.
Maybe new-guy is sticking around cuz your actions and words are saying two diff.things. I know personally, sometimes I can b telling a guy I dont want anything, but my actions are saying "i want you to work harder so im playing hard to get".lol...

doll said...

its always hard to move on...i guess....but with time....

Lady Koko said...

MEHNNNNNNN......sigh...IT WILL HURT.,....BUT moving on..IT BEST FOR you IN THE long run! IMAGINE CARRYING A BOX FULL ON CANNED FOOD WITH YOU EVERYWHERE YOU GO...tired?? weighed down?? YEP..BAGGAGE IS NEVER A BLESSING!
I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IF ANY relationship TAKES A back turn in the OPPOSITE DIRECTION.....then thats a bad sign.e.g. ITS OKAY FOR FRIEND TO BECOME BOYFRIEND...THAT PROGRESS..moving foward.....ITS BAD FOR FRIEND TO BECOME ENEMY.....(duhhh) .....SURELY ITS NOT ADVICEABLE FOR BOYFRIEND TO BECOME FRIEND...thats moving backwards again..(or maybe am just chatting shit and need to give up the breeze..*sigh*)
p.s: xoxo