18.1.09

I've never really been alone. I've been single for a looong time but never alone.
Before I continue,baroque-long story!...neffie-specs coming up soon!..DM-you too!
Now where was I?
I've never been alone.There's always someone wasting my minutes and occupying my mind
(Gosh I hate blogging with my phone)
So anyway for the first time in a long time,I think I'm alone
I've been fighting it all the usual ways...
Calling up stalkers I dint send before..
Hanging on to fading friendships...
Giving shreds of hope to people...
But the truth is...I'm tired of fighting it
I need to learn how to be happy and secure without seeking external validation
I need to learn how to let things happen their own way instead of tryin to control everything
Being alone is lonely I won't lie
But maybe this is a good time to rediscover my relationship with God
And pay more attention to my friends
And go to bed early
And not worry about where 'its' going

I actually planned to blog about why owning a blackberry is shameful...
I guess I'll do that later
Chari and buttercup please halp scarred cynics like me believe in love

Have a good day guys

Xxx

6 comments:

Abujamaiden said...

I need a phone I can actualy blog from...

I've ruled out the blackberry now.

Before an agnostic slap comes my way, I pray whenever I feel the way you do. The last time I was sooo lonely, I prayed to not be alone and guys were coming in all directions- left, right and centre. I had to pray to reverse it...lol!

Now, I'm calling up old friends and you'll never know the 'random' one who'll be you best buddy.

I hope it will be okay...!

Lolia said...

el oh el @ your Chari and Buttercup statement...I was thinking the exact same thing yesterday...

As for being alone...it can be a beautiful thing sometimes to embrace it all you can :)

Marjoram said...

you are never alone,you will always have family,and well, friends.and us bloggers.

i'm of the belief that,for every season,there is a reason.this may be youre season to re-discover yourself.plus,youre season of love may just be on it's way.

Danny Bagucci said...

Maybe some aloneness is great for life... Not having anyone on your case potentially frees you up to see life in a different perspective -- without being colored by what the significant people you care about think.... And makes you think very seriously about what is truly important.....

A quote from John Calvin who I'm currently reading -- "The evil in our desire, typically does not lie inn what we want, but that we want it too much"..... U might be trying too hard.. Take a deep breath and chill, sort out other things, you might just be suprised what's around the corner....

teebay said...

eyah! sorry!

but blackberry sucks though!

:)

*sweets* said...

i sooo know how u feel...and somehow, im goin thru the exact same phase too! i think it is soo essential for me to be by myself right now! no strings attached...cs to be honest, this has never happened. im workin on it tho...

p.s. i love marjoram's line of thought! makes a whole lot of sense...