27.10.09

Apparently...

I'm completely self delusional...

I would never have thot this..

Infact if asked to describe myself i would say that i'm a sweet, too-nice, wears her feelings on her jacket kinda girl...

But apparently i'm more of a stone cold dont care about anyone *insert bad word that starts with b*

I guess it shouldn't be that much of a shock

I remember one time when my friend said she didnt think i was a christian because 'you're not a nice person' *insert shocked hurt expression* Although her opinion obviously changed when she got to know me- at least i HOPE it has*

So- if i care about people truly and it just doesnt show- I don't actually know what to do

Oh please- i dont want to hear that 'then show it' because as i said before i thought i was showing the feelings a bit too much

Short of pasting a fake smile on my face and carrying cardboard signs detailing how i feel about people, i really don't know how to change this impression.

btw- on a more random note, i noticed d'banj and his using a white girl in his current video- but can't the guy like a white girl again? Have we just forgotten the millions of black girls he used in his past videos?

On another random note- i was really irritated the other day when i opened the hair section of a magazine and saw Beyonce's poker straight weave being described as 'afro-hair' then i though about it and thought- 'hmmm- these magazines aim to appeal to as wide a demographic as possible and most black people have 'white' hair in the form of weaves and expensive hair modifying products- so even if the magazines don't exressly mention 'black hair', realistically they cater to it as well!

But hey- dont make this a human rights issue- im having enough pain from my chocolate fast as it is. *day 2*

xx

3 comments:

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

LMAO!!!!! at being labelled not very nice you should have told her that she is kinda perverse coz why does she hand around you if you are not very nice lol.....see you should habg around me a bit more often lol im a nice but a snob (so i have been told )

ttlolla said...

Its funny how different we really are from what we think

I used to think my face was normal until i was told i had a perma frown


I think am mean but people keep telling me how sweet i am.....so i beta keep it up then!! lol

Sugarking said...

" i noticed d'banj and his using a white girl in his current video- but can't the guy like a white girl again? Have we just forgotten the millions of black girls he used in his past videos? "

I was wondering too jare. Are white girls not humans again? abi can't a man have a choice again?