Now I feel like everytime I try to write, the words get stuck somewhere between my head and my hands. Or maybe it's just that I don't know what I want to say. Words used to be my hiding place. Or my safe place. The one way to express stuff even I didn't understand. Now it doesn't feel so safe anymore. Every word that comes out feels like a betrayal of my emotions. Emotions are suppose to be buried deep inside of you. They aren't supposed to spill out for anyone to see. Even you. They should be buried.
What am I even saying?
Writing isn't my safe place anymore. Music doesn't understand me quite as well as it used to.
I don't get lost in false storybook characters anymore.
I have no more escapes.
But all I want to do is run.