It wasn't supposed to be like this. I wasn't supposed to spend it alone. Wait- i'm not alone- im doing all these things with all these people. How many people did i say no to? But thats not the point. It wasn't supposed to be like this...
I was supposed to wake up squashed in a single bed- wearing his crumpled tshirt. He is sleeping beside me. I stare at him and prod him till he wakes up. 'what'? he says. 'happy valentine', i scream in that happy cheerful way that i do. 'you know i dont believe in vals', he says as he turns and tries to go back to sleep. ' well, i do' i say as i lie down beside him and sing 'twinkle twinkle little star' in his ear in an annoying high picthed voice that forces him to wake up. 'Ok, happy vals day'..'its not 'happy vals day'..its not the day were celebrating-its not like we say 'merry christmas day'..'whatever-im tired.can you please just let me go back to bed'..nope!!
We spend the day doing nothing! Watching loads of movies- cheesy ones and disgusting horror ones! Eating loadsa chocolatey things and practising for the olympic kissing championship.
But its not going to happen is it? Because i picked yesterday of all days to have a 'he's just not tthat into you moment' and because he's not here is he?